How Far Along: 9 weeks (pic 9w5d)
Size of Baby as Relative to Common Household Fruit or Vegetable: Blackberry
Total Weight Gain: As of my OB appointment last week, I’m down at least 5 lbs. from pre-pregnancy weight. Not really surprised given I’ve barely been able to eat for the last few weeks.
Sex: Panorama screening is next week. We should know a couple of weeks after that.
Movement: Long ways off, and I found out I’ll probably have an anterior placenta, so maybe even further off than usual.
Sleep: I’m tired all the time, but wake up constantly to pee and have been having vivid dreams.
What I miss: Caffeine
Cravings: I’m mostly off food, but cakeballs always sound good.
Symptoms: The fatigue and aversions are lightening up, but SI joint paint has stepped up in its place. I’m doing exercises to try to get everything realigned, but I foresee support belts, chiropractors, and acupuncturists in my future. This all lines up pretty closely with my pregnancy with Isla.
Emotions: Back and forth between excited and worried.
PgAL Thoughts: We’ve started moving forward a little with planning. I pulled out my old maternity clothes, washed them, and started sorting through what I can wear and what I can’t. (My pre-pregnancy weight this time around is a lot less than it was with Isla, so a lot of the clothes are too big.) I’ve started looking at ideas for announcements, since we’ve discussed doing that on my husband’s birthday. I’ll be 12 weeks. We’ also started talking about names. I’m eager to start planning, eager to be excited and further into the pregnancy and feeling more comfortable, but at the same time, every time we start to talk about it or I start to make plans, I feel like a fraud. Some nasty part of me starts thinking things like, “Who do you think you’re kidding? This baby won’t stick. Making these plans is a fool’s errand. You’ll never have a baby again. Why are you even wasting your time and emotional energy? This is never. going. to. happen.” I don’t have another ultrasound until October 15, and I’ve been debating whether to cave and ask for another u/s before then just for peace of mind. At the same time, I know that the reassurance from a u/s lasts all of 24 hours, so it’s really not useful. Trying to take deep breaths, enjoy this pregnancy, and stop worrying so much. It’s not productive.
Maternity Clothes: In the mornings, I don’t need them, but by the evenings, I do–thanks, blump–so I’ve been doing a lot of loose-fitting clothing and belly bands.
Best Moment This Week: Maternity clothes shopping with my best friend.